It just doesn't feel right when I get into bed at night. You're not on your way out of it to finally use the bathroom.
Although I wake up to the most beautiful girl in the world, I miss the 5 am "I Love You I'll see you when I get home" kiss.
When 5pm rolls around I'm not anxiously looking out the window to see you pull into the drive way or cursing your job when you have to stay late.
I miss having to wonder if you're going to sneak up behind me while I'm doing the dishes and scare me half to death.
I miss having to rush into the shower when you tell me you're on your way home so that you don't know I had a lazy day.
I miss having you to cuddle with at night and watch all our recorded television.
I've actually had to look under my hood instead of telling you something sounds funny.
I miss the way you smell after you come home from work.
I miss the way I would always catch you staring at me and smiling for no reason at all.
I don't have to yell at you every 5 seconds for biting your nails and I actually kind of miss that.
I'm not worried about being woken up in the middle of the night because you're talking crazy in your sleep. I miss that.
I miss telling you every day that you have a hole in your shorts but never remembering to actually sew them up for you.
I miss cooking dinner and having you wait for me to decide I can't eat anymore so that you can finish mine instead of getting up to get seconds.
I miss knowing that you hate when I ask you what you're thinking about but not being able to stop myself anyways.
I miss laughing together at the people who say that a husband and wife shouldn't spend all of their time together.
I miss having my best friend around all of the time, whenever I need you.
I miss you. I miss us. I miss everything.
But I'm strong. Strong enough to smile at all of our great memories and not cry because we can't be together right now. Strong enough to hold it together until you come home.
I Love You Jonathan. Forever and Always<3