I got THE email

I got THAT email!! :-) I've known the date for a while now but it's still nice to see it written in that email with a time and place associated with it. For all of you military wives this doesn't need explanation. For all of you that don't understand this email means that Jon will be home SOON!! Definitely before the end of the month and before it's even hit half way through the month.

I'll be smiling for the next less thank 2 weeks :-)

Two things

Two things really annoy me. Well a lot of things bug me but today these are my topics.

First of all, I can't stand miscommunication due to distance. Half the time when I get to talk to my husband I am stuck texting on my phone. My phone is the most annoying thing ever to type on. Autocorrect always thinks it's smarter than me and I just don't have the patience for it. So when I have to explain myself to my husband it usually ends up in a big nvm argument.
You just can't tell when someone is joking when it's online. And that's annoying. I cannot wait for these last 2 weeks to get over with so I don't have to deal with it anymore. Hopefully.

Second, why is it that the harder I work out the more I want to eat? It completely defeats the purpose of running every day if I come home and eat everything in site. I know the real answer I just wish it wasn't so. I am fine watching calories and losing weight but I want to tone up which unfortunately involves working out which makes me sooooo hungry!!

Gah, today is a bit stressful. I need some sleep.

I'm back!

Now that I'm back in Jacksonville I've got my old blogging job back with Onslow Memorial Hospital! I've moved up a year into Cuddlebugs since Abigail is almost one now. I'm so excited!

I'm still planning on getting at least a part time job as well though. My blog job is from home so it allows more time. I just have to find something I can do and apply. I would love to work at the Library on base because A) I love books and I loved my old job working in the library and B) it would be easy for bringing abi to daycare and I would be literally the building next to Jon's shop so we could see each other during the day hopefully.

I just have to figure out the application process for base jobs. The KSA's they require confuse me.

I've been tagged again. And just to put it out there. I don't retag because I'm lazy. Well really it's because I jump on here quick while Abigail is sleeping and I don't like to use all of my "free" time on the computer so I try and keep it quick. Retagging and creating questions would most likely be the whole time.

I forgot to post the 11 random facts about myself in the first one so I'll do it this time.

FACTS:
1. I could eat cereal for every meal of the day, ever day of the year.
2. I hate writing papers in college. It seems like a huge waste of time. And don't get me started on citing. They could make it just a little less painful on us!
3. I hate being a single mom, even though it's temporary (fingers crossed) I just really don't like it.
4. This entire deployment I have dealt with slight ocd. I won't word something or even say something if it has to do with wishing Jon was home. I feel like if I wish for him to come home, especially to come home early, I'll be granted with a casket. It's terrifying.
5. I don't go to church or even pray as much as I would like to but my Faith has been a huge factor in my marriage succeeding and all other aspects of my life. It's made me a better person and continues to each day.
6. I should be writing that paper right now but for some reason my brain always forces me to wait until the last minute.
7. I hate technology for making itself so prominent in my life. I feel like I need a nicotine patch or something and that's scary.
8. I am a neat freak. I hate a dirty house but I hate an unbalanced house even more. i.e. everything has to be centered, matching, and flow properly from room to room.
9. When I get bored I like to shop and when I shop I get out of control.
10. I love getting mail. I think this derived from boot camp.
11. I live for my husband and his love. I realized yesterday that I can't physically be happy when he's not around. I always find an excuse for it but in the end it's just his absence. I need to work on that because it's seriously pathetic.

Ok, now that I probably got way too personal, here are my questions.

1. Have you ever told a stranger about salvation through Christ?

Nope. I hate when people push religion on others so I tend not to even bring it up unless someone else does first. 

2. Have you ever been to a chiropractor?

Yes, soooooooo incredible. I need to make another appointment actually.

3. When you first learned about PTSD, what did you think of it?

I still don't know a whole about it I just know that it's an awful illness. 

4. Have you ever regretted being married? (If you're single, skip this one.)

First of all, I don't believe in regrets. There is always a lesson to be learned from every experience so if you regret something it's because you haven't learned anything. If you have learnt something then whatever the mistake, it was worth it to better yourself. Secondly, if you rephrase this to have I ever wanted a divorce? Still no. I love my husband with all of my heart and wish to be his wife forever. 

5. If your spouse said they wanted you to wear skirts for the rest of your life because he loved how you looked in them, would you have a problem with that?

Absolutely. I might be able to throw in a skirt once a week or something but I rarely wear them now so that would be quite the uncomfortable change. Thankfully I know my husband would never do that. He likes me in blue jeans and sweat pants.

6. What are you most thankful for today?

This extremely long nap that Abigail has taken. Even though I haven't used it properly I appreciate the alone time.

7. How often have you been angered by things you have read on my blog?

I don't let things on blogs anger me. If I don't care to read it I stop reading and move on.

8. Describe a time you helped someone out anonymously and did not seek recognition for it.

Anonymously as in I didn't give my name but I usually help people in person out in public. Now that you mention this though I have always wanted to secretly pay for someone's dinner. So maybe I'll do that. 

9. What household chore do you gripe about performing the most?

Deja vu! I'll say it again. It used to be dishes but now we have a dishwasher. And I previously said laundry but I change my mind again. We have a white carpet and my dog has muddy paws/legs. So my newly hated chore is cleaning those carpets every day. Hopefully I've found the solution.

10. How can you tell if someone is really following the Messiah?

I don't usually look for it, but usually patience, kindess, and positivity lead me to believe that someone knows he's got their back.

11. Do you think that Barack Obama is a good president? 

I'm indifferent. All president's make mistakes. No one with that amount of power can be perfect. And his job clearly stresses him out since he's gone gray. So I try not to judge, BUT I would like our economy to get fixed. Just saying.

I've been tagged!

I can't resist surveys. So here it goes.

1. If you had to eat one thing for breakfast for the rest of your life, what would it be?
       english muffins with butter and cinnamon sugar. 

2. What is the one chore you despise doing?
        normally dishes but my new house has a dish washer. So now it's laundry because my washer and dryer are in an awkward space that makes it difficult to transfer clothes. 

3. Are there any books you can pick up and reread over and over again?
         no I don't have time for reading with a baby lol

4. Who would play you in the movie of your life?
         Angelina Jolie. lol

5. If you had to rename your blog for any reason what would be its new name?
        "Forced to rename, couldn't decide so here it is"

6. What is your favorite outfit to wear?
        jeans and a cotton t shirt with my boots

7. If I gave you $100 what completely non practical thing would you spend it on?
        probably shoes

8. What is your favorite childhood memory?
         I have a horrible memory so I honestly can barely remember being a child.

9. If you could be an instant expert in any subject matter, what would you choose?
         Biology, it's the one thing I could never get the hang of.

10. What is your favorite joke?
         I am easy to humor so I like a lot of jokes.

11. Where in the world is Carmen San Diego?
        I don't know, she keeps hiding

I bought a truck!

Before my husband deployed he sold his truck. We needed the money and he wasn't going to need a truck for the year he was gone so it didn't make sense to keep it since I was moving back home and had my car. Regardless I felt horrible. As long as I have known him he had this truck. It was his truck and uniquely his to the point where you would see it somewhere and immediately know who it was.

I've told him that one thing he needs to let me buy him is a truck. He didn't trust me in the slightest to pick out a truck so he did his shopping online. It took nearly this entire year but he finally found a nearly perfect truck close to Jacksonville in our price range. He sent me the link this morning and by 6:45 pm I was pulling it into the driveway. I had to drive 2 hours to get it and it took nearly 3 hours at the dealership but hey, outcome is a good one.

We are the proud new owners of a black Chevy Silverado <3

Not our actual truck, I just googled this pic. But it's identical.

This is his old truck. You can see what I was talking about. Severely obnoxious, but I will admit that I miss her a great deal. 

The nice shiny new one will look similar to this eventually. Jon has plans for her. Just not as drastic as before. 

But hey, I've seen worse. 

The real point is that I bought this truck all by myself!! I did the examining, engine checking (even though I really didn't know what I was doing under the hood I just faked it) enough for them to think I meant business and knew what I was looking for, and negotiating. I got an incredible deal and successfully bought my husband the most expensive present I will ever give him. Well he kind of bought it himself since he makes the moola currently, but the downpayment was all me baby! 

I'm proud of myself. Another thing I thought I needed a man for that I can clearly accomplish myself. This deployment has made me one hell of an independent lady. Except for the fact that I would honestly die without my husband or daughter. Purely for love and satisfaction. 

Anyways, just wanted to pat myself on the back publicly. Toodles!

Will they find me?

This is tough to admit but I'm terrified. Now that it's getting down to just a couple weeks until my husband comes home I've become more scared than I ever have been. I need to see my husband. I need him to come home. I'm terrified that I can still lose him and we are so close to this being over with.

A thought that has been on my mind for a while now is if anyone would be able to find me. You know, just incase. Since I just moved back no one other than DEERS has my new address. I don't know why this is consuming my thoughts but how horrible would it be to never be informed? Or at least not before others know.

Ugh, I need to start jogging to keep my mind off of things. Speaking of... I got my new stroller today. I plan on testing her out tomorrow. Hopefully it's the relief I need.

Ok I did it.

I bought my super expensive Bob jogging stroller. I did a lot of research and for what I need it for nothing compared to the Bob Revolution Se jogging stroller. It msrps for $450 but I got it for $385 with my ninja bargin skills. (Ebay)

I need to start running and the only way I can do that is by bringing Abigail with me so I needed a good stroller. And I figured if I am going to spend over $100 I might as well spend almost $400 to make sure it's the best of the best and will last.

I am still trying to justify the price but then I realized after this year I really deserve to spoil myself with a kudos present.

So here she is. My beautiful new jogging stroller that Abigail and I will have losts of bonding time with.

Jogging mama's

I've been dying to start jogging again. I can't without bringing Abigail along. So the solution is a jogging stroller. Now the problem is what stroller.

I've been told that BOB strollers are the absolute best. But that doesn't mean others aren't great as well. I don't want to spend a ton of money but I also want it to last a while. I need help, opinions or suggestions.

Are strollers with a front swivel wheel better than stationary? Or vice versa?

Do I get a single stroller or invest int he double stroller since we do plan on adding to the family eventually?

As you can see I really need help.

I'm home

I'm finally back in North Carolina. Almost all settled into the new home. It's going to take a bit to be complete but I've got a little bit of time. Not much though!

Here are some pictures.

MilSpouse Quiz

Well everyone else is doing this so here it goes.

The Milspouse Quiz 

1. How did you and your spouse meet? 

We first met in highschool. He was the senior and I was a freshman. I had a huge crush on him. I'm talking looking forward to lunch every day because we sat at the same table and I could just stare at him. 

2. How old were you when you two met? 

I was probably 14 and he was probably 17
3. How long have you been together? 

We just celebrated our 2 year wedding anniversary. But we have been together for 4 1/2 ish years. 

4. Where are you and your spouse originally from? 

We are both from Fultonville, NY

5. How did you feel about him joining the military? 

I broke up with him. I gave him an ultimatum and he didn't pick me so I left. I was heart broken that he wouldn't have consulted me about it. He just kind of sprung it on me that he had decided to join. Obviously we got back together. The real kicker is that I started dating someone else, my best friends boyfriend who ironically was studying at Annapolis. I didn't even really like the guy I think it was my subconscious telling me I could date a military guy. It was just my safe way of easing myself into it since he was still in school. I really love my subconscious for having my back sometimes. Anyways, Jon tried for months to get me back and finally I was sick of pretending like I didn't love him with every inch of my soul. So he won me back and left for bootcamp a couple months later. 
6. Where did your spouse go to Basic Training? 

Parris Island, SC. Watching him graduate was the most incredible experience ever. 

7. Has your spouse ever been deployed? 

He's currently deployed. But comes home soon!!

8. Ever been to his promotion ceremony? 

Unfortunately not. He got promoted while in Afghanistan. But he had someone take pictures for me because he knew it upset me to miss it. 

9. How long have you been a military wife? 

2 years and 8 days. We've been together for this entire ride though supporting one another through it all. It's great<3
10. Did you marry him before or after he joined? 

About 10 months after. 

11. How did your husband propose? 

We went on a weekend trip to Cape Cod before he went to boot camp. We spent the entire weekend having as much fun possible. He didn't know he was going to propose that weekend. He didn't even have the ring. He made me a bubble bath and when I came out he looked all nervous and jittery. He came over to me and told me how much he loved me. Then he got down on one knee and took his father's ring off from his chain and asked me to marry him. He said "I don't have your ring just yet, but I wanted to ask you if you'd marry me." Or something sappy and romantic alone those lines. It was beautiful. When we got home he went to his mother's house and asked for his great grandmother's ring. It was all perfect. 
12. Where did you get married? 

At our church in town. 

13. How old were you two when you got married?

I was 19 he was 22. 

14. Did he wear his uniform on his wedding day? 

Yes he did. 

15. Where are you and your spouse currently stationed? 

Campe Lejeune, NC

16. Do you live on base? 

Nope. 
17. How long were you married when you had to go through your first separation? 

He did a few short trainings just a few months into our marriage. But we went an entire year before a deployment. 
18. What is your favorite base so far? 

I've only been at Lejeune but I like it. 

19. Do you think your spouse looks good in his uniform? 

Is this a real question? Of course I do.
20. Do you think military life is more advanced than civilian life? 

I don't know what you mean by advanced. Do things go a lot faster? Definitely. Do you grow up faster and mature faster? Yes. It allows you to be in your first year of marriage and have it feel as if it's been 30 years because you learn not to let the little things matter so you just get along so effortlessly. It's wonderful really. 
21. Do you like the benefits you receive as a military dependent? 

There aren't really any perks that you wouldn't get even if he was a civilian. Healthcare is nice but the company can be a pain in the tukas. Discounts are pretty nice but the only time it really makes a big difference is airlines and hotels. I guess my answer is I could live without them. 
22. Do you have a lot of military wife friends? 

Not really. I've never been the kind of person to have a million friends. I like having a few really good ones. Which I do have. I've met some really great military friends most of which are bloggers :-)
23. What is the hardest part of the military life? 

Not having control is pretty awful. There is no planning with the military which makes life a little difficult and stressful. But of course separations are horrible as well. 
24. Do you own military wife stuff? 

I have a military wife shirt and a bunch of military stuff from when Jon was in bootcamp and his first couple months. But the longer he is in the less I like to wear any of it. I do get a kick out of wearing my military wife shirt to the gym back home though. People look at me as if I'm in the military and you can see the intimidation. It's kind of funny!
25. Do you support your spouse as a member of the military? 

Of course I do. Although he really is the one who chose this path I agreed to marry him and support him through it. I'm so proud of everything he has done and accomplished. He deserves nothing less than my full support because he never lets me down. 

Irritated

I just deactivated my Facebook account and I'm going through what I assume is withdrawl. I open my computer and my mouse scrolls to where the facebook short cut used to be. I realize it's gone and I can't log on and I get annoyed.
I hate that I've let myself become so dependent on facebook. Some pointless internet site that allows way too many people into my life and does more harm than good.
I'm determined to get over this. I don't care about it. I don't have to read people's whining and complaining. Life will be better and I will only be on the computer when it's necessary for school or work.

Ok.

Now onto my next addiction, lejeuneyardsales.com...

Oh, you'll be a tricky one.

Woman like you

It's been quite a while since I cried in the car while listening to a country song. I started to think I was getting pretty tough. And then I heard Lee Brice sing Woman Like You. And I felt my eyes swelling up with tears. Out of all of the sappy country songs out that could have made me cry why this one? I mean seriously, have you heard Martina McBride with Love You Through It? Or Faith Hill's new one Come Home? Those are songs that should make me cry. Not Lee Brice.

Then I realized what it was. This song made me feel like Jon was home. Like it was him singing to me. It made me laugh which inevitable made me cry. It's a great song. It's a perfect song to show the overpowering humorous side to my husband while still seeing his romantic side. It even sounds like my husband singing. Have I mentioned how great my husband is at singing? That's all he ever has to do to make me smile.

So anyways, here it is. Sorry if you have the emotional strength of a new born baby like I do and this makes you cry. My bad.

Time

Have you ever wondered why time slows down when we are looking forward to something but speeds up when we wish it would freeze? I can't figure it out. Maybe if I convince myself that I didn't want my husband to come home time would speed up like it did when he left.
I don't understand why having a good time makes life seem shorter whereas being miserable makes it longer. Isn't life supposed to be a blessing? A gift? Something to enjoy. And yet the more you enjoy it the quicker it slips through your fingers.
I'm usually pretty good at understanding that there is a reason for everything but my brain is stumped on this one.
I had this theory once. When time seemed to be crawling it meant that someone desperately needed more time. Whatever the reason, to spend with a loved one maybe, they wished that time would slow down. It must have been very important because not only did their time slow down but everyone else's as well. Same for time speeding up. It helped me take a breath and relax instead of complaining about it. If my time had to slow down so that someone else could enjoy an important moment longer than I was honored to do so.
It's way better than just thinking time slows down when we anticipate something right? Plus it makes you wonder if our time speeding up is father time's way of catching us up? Yea, I bet your brain is working now huh?
haha

Anyways, my point is that time never fails to stop when I desperately want it to run.

Ok I'll say it I'm scared.

More like terrified. I just wrote about the possibility of my husband reenlisting, like yesterday, and well it only took a day to realize how ridiculous that was. So we are back to our original plan of getting out, him going to school to finish his degree while I put mine to good use.
And I'm really nervous. I haven't fully admitted that yet. I've tip toed around it but it's finally hit me like the time I was playing lazer tag and ran into a big metal pole while trying to avoid being shot. Could have just said a ton of bricks but I thought this was a little more descriptive.
Anyways, what the heck am I going to do? Sure, we will have the BAH as long as he is in college which will help out a ton but it's not everything. I need to be produce the majority of our family's income. With my first real job out of college.
I can't watch movies where the main character gets themselves in uncomfortable situations where you know they are going to fail. That's kind of how I feel about this. If I was staring in a movie and yet watching it at the same time I would be changing the channel right now.
I don't even know what I want to do with my degree. Which is a BA in Business Administration fyi incase anyone out there in the Charlotte, NC area is reading this and thinks I'm brilliant and necessary to the success of their business ;-). Worth a shot.
I was having a mini panic attack a little bit ago and remembered something that someone in some class at some point in my life told me to do when I get in a situation like this. A SWOT analysis on yourself. Listing your Strengths, Weaknesses, Opportunities, and Threats. I skip the WOT and just focus on my strengths. Also, add in what you love to do. I suppose those could be listed as opportunities but since I don't see myself becoming a professional volleyball player I'd rather not get my hopes up. Here it goes.

What I think I do best:

Write/edit
Organize
Make lists/budgets
Multi-task
Skim read
Research
Counsel
Problem solve

What I love to do:

Write/edit
Make lists/budgets
Problem solve
Shop
Play volleyball

Ok, so first of all that seriously felt great. I think that's the first time I've focused on my positives in a long time. Right off the bat you can see similarities in what I do well and what I love to do. I should probably explain my skim reading bullet. I hate reading anything other than books for pleasure fully. If someone sends me an informative email say on how to do something. I will immediately focus on the necessary points and discard the rest. Which may sound bad to some but I have found it's a huge asset. I don't have to waste my time sorting mumbo jumbo I can just chose the points I need and move on. If I were a CEO of a company I would want all of my emails short with bullet points. Another example is chapter reading for assignments. I rarely read a full chapter. I flip through the pages for the pertinent information and save the rest for possible reference later on. I think it's a skill but I understand some look at it as lazy. But it's not, I jut refuse to waste my time.

Anyways, what jumps out to me as potential careers from this list is something in the fields of human resources, finance, or something along the lines of communications or journalism. It's helped lead me in a direction and assure me I do have some sort of usable skill that I can focus on. But I'm still nervous.

My husband has so much faith in me and I just can't understand why I don't have faith in myself. I think it's the indefinite possibilities. Sometimes it's better to have fewer options than having to create one.

I know I'll figure it all out in time. Everything in my life always seems to come together after I stress and lose sleep over it. Kind of ironic that I listed one of my strengths as problem solving huh? Mostly other peoples. I like to be presented with a problem and find the best way to solve it. Anything from my friends boy troubles (I say boy because real men are a rare breed and wouldn't give any problems) to planning a move with a strict budget.

This post is ridiculously long but it felt good to just vent. Now back to working on my future. Fingers crossed.

Have I mentioned I like to plan?

I'm not sure I've mentioned it enough but I'm a planner. I like things laid out and scheduled ahead of time. Everything has a time and place.
That's why things like the military life and moving cause extreme anxiety. I hate the unknown. You can't plan for it which means you can't prepare for it.
This move has about maxed me out. I move next weekend and I couldn't wait that long to purchase new furniture. I've stalked Lejeune Yard Sales for weeks. I have found my living room set and bedroom set and thankfully the sellers are gracious enough to hold them until I get down there.
I have had our cable set for installation for a week now. I just set up water and electricity to be turned on before I get there. My last thing is internet which is proving to be a little challenging.
I have to hold myself back from ordering a mattress online. I mean who does that really? I keep telling myself it's absolutely necessary to lay on a mattress before purchasing one. But it's hard to deny the incredible post Christmas sales.
I still need to get a coffee table/accent tables, dining room table, mattress, and washer/ dryer set. I'm trying my best to hold off so I can have something to shop for while I'm down there. I get a huge thrill when I shop. Mainly for pieces like these because I go to thrift stores and search for gems. I hate paying full retail for furniture. It just doesn't make sense to me.
Anyways, the only thing I will be buying new is our mattress. I'm hoping to score an awesome deal on a washer/dryer set from LYS but so far it's not looking good. I might have to break down and purchase those new as well. But mark my words every piece of clothing I have will be worn before I give up the hunt!

On the other end of things, I mentioned how you can't plan with the military life. Which is completely true. We are discussing when we want to try for our second child and both agreed we wanted to immediately until we realized the horrid timing we would find ourselves in. Since he would be getting out next March we would only have a couple months to try and then we would have to put it on hold until after we moved. Which would turn in to several years since I would want to settle down into our new town and new career.
Well, this brought back the discussion of reenlistment. Not solely so we could continue baby making, but I expressed my hesitation about being the sole working person for the family. Once he gets out he planned on attending college again and since I will already have a bachelors I would be the one working.
So anyways, we are now discussing reenlistment. Part of me wishes I kept my mouth shut and never said anything because if he reenlists he is staying in until retirement and that means a lot more separation over the years. But the other part of me loves the military family and support. I know if I need support my girls have my back. I feel guilty for suggesting it though. I almost feel like I'm willing to let him risk his life so I don't have to be the sole provider. Incredibly selfish of me. But to be fair, if I was in his position I would want to stay in. Military retirement is an incredible benefit that they all deserve. It's a hard life but it's a rewarding one.

But it's nothing I can plan. All is out of my control. Which I'm semi alright with. If I don't have control of a situation I don't have to plan for it. It's when things are my responsibility that I get anxious and stressed.

Anyways, this was a long post just to say I love LYS for allowing me to get my furniture ahead of time.  I guess I needed a little vent session.

Two Years Ago

Two years ago I was in a limo on the way to church. Except this time it wasn't Sunday service. It was my wedding. The element of surprise was obsolete since my groom was sitting next to me. But that didn't take the magic out of it all.
He opened the door and fled into the church while the girls and I waited patiently for everyone to be seated. Only a couple moments passed before he returned sobbing. His grandfather had died just a short couple months before while he was at boot camp. His uncle had presented him with his grandfather's war medal. Not the best of timing but it allowed me to see his vulnerable side once more before we said I do. It was the perfect push I needed to step out of that door and pull the veil over my face.

In what seemed like a few seconds full of shaky legs and tears we were married. The rest of the night went by so fast that I honestly can barely remember most of it.

We were blessed in that we spent most of our first year of marriage together. Just a few short absences. The second year however was mostly separate. This deployment has been a huge hurdle. No I take that back. A hurdle is something you have to jump over. This is more of a winding river. No matter what we were headed in the same direction but whether we chose to paddle meant all the difference in how we would end up.

Being away from your partner in crime is pretty difficult. Especially with a new baby to care for. Although I will admit that this was no where near as hard as I had anticipated. For the most part you just do what you need to do. Instead of waking up every morning just to suffer through a day without him I chose to wake up every morning realizing we were one day closer to being together.

"Faith in God includes faith in His timing." Neal A. Maxwell

Everything happens for a reason. And everything happens when it is supposed to happen. God only gives us what we can handle. There is never a question about finding the strength to overcome because He has given it to you.
Not once did I lay awake at night wondering why I had to endure this deployment. For I knew exactly why. It was part of His plan for me, for us. It was his way of proving our love for one another. It got difficult at times but never unbearable. I never thought about leaving. I only thought about how much stronger we were becoming.

So I can sit here and complain about how I spent an entire year of marriage away from my husband. Or I can sit here and tell you how blessed I am that God believes in our love enough to give us the ultimate challenge. I know that He was reassuring us that we are supposed to be together. That this was his remarkable way of reinforcing our love.

Two years ago today my love and I promised ourselves to one another and to God. Today I don't get to spend with my husband, but God has reassured me that is not important. What's important is that we have a very powerful love with an unbreakable bond. No matter the distance we are still one.

Happy Anniversary Papa Bear<3 You mean the world to me and so much more. I'm so thankful to have you in my life forever and always.

2012

Don't you hate when you have an awesome thought after you are laying in bed trying to sleep but instead of writing it down you trust that you'll remember it in the morning, and then of course you don't?
I do. Or well I did. Last night. I wrote out the most incredible New Years blog in my head last night and now I can't even remember a single word.

What I can tell you is that my new year has started off great. My husband got promoted to CPL and our 2 year anniversary is tomorrow. More good things to come!

Maybe I'll remember that poetic genius one of these times.