First blog from CHAMPLAIN!!

I moved into my dorm Friday morning. Luckily I was the first to arrive because let me tell you it was a full out brawl when the last girl arrived! Her mother apparently did not like the room design so she wanted to draw straws for who got the "shitty" bed. It was a whole lot of drama that the roomies and I figured out amongst ourselves later that night. Oh, by the way, I have 3 other roommates. Yes, 3. We are in a tiny quad. We made it work though.
I have my wall dedicated to my wonderful fiance<3 Jon is currently at Camp Lejeune, NC and will be there until December. We talk everyday but it is really difficult being so far away from him and starting a new experience without him. This was a big WELCOME TO THE MARINE LIFE smack in the face for me. lol.
It is amazing how independent you become without even realizing it. I guess college will do that to you but so will having your other half 1,000 miles away from you. I picked a really amazing college though. The area and atmosphere makes it almost impossible to be upset. If I'm having a bad day I just look out my window and I can just see the mountains and Lake Champlain and I immediately feel relaxed.
I often find myself thinking about other women who have gone through this. You know, the whole being with a marine while being without your marine thing. If they can do it so can I. If I can do it then maybe that will give at least one other couple a little more hope. Things could always be worse. I figure I'm living in a beautiful college town, surrounded by friends, and experiencing what is supposed to be the best years of my life. I miss Jonathan more than a lot of people will ever miss anyone but I know he is missing me too.

I am going to use something that one of my teachers told us on the first day of class yesterday.
Go beyond the Fuck It. YES, that's swearing. I was shocked that a teacher would swear too but hey, its college and he didn't wear shoes either so I think he's well past the norm. What he was saying is that everything is better once you get tot he point where you just throw up your hands and say well..Fuck it. From here on out I am diving into whatever is thrown at me and enjoying it for all it's worth. I am going to enjoy the dreaded papers and smile at the thought of learning something new. Fuck it, I'm enjoying life.

Another little note of inspiration that I remembered from a speech I heard from Tammy Trent is that everyday you should open your eyes and see the beauty in front of you. She said "Today, I see beautiful." Every time I say that or hear it I get chills. I often forget this and just have those days where no matter what happens you feel like you just want to crawl into bed and never leave. I am going to make the best of every situation and see the beauty in everything.

No more sad Bre.
Fuck it, I see beautiful.


Semper Fi<3

It's been awhile...(edited)

I haven't posted in a long time because I have been sooooo BUSY!! I have wedding planning, a class finishing up, and packing to do! Surprisingly I am not overwhelmed, just super busy! I have a lot done for my wedding already and it still feels like I have a million more things to do! I actually do have a million more things to do but since I won't know the for sure date for a little bit I have to hold off. I have my dress headpiece and veil, the bridal party's dresses, the guys tuxes are picked out but not ordered yet, we know what church we want to get married at, I have my centerpieces about 1/2 complete, I have a favor idea in mind, OMG I NEED SHOES!!, Jon's sister is doing the photography which is absolutely incredible!!! (I'll post pictures after so everyone can see how amazing she is), I have an idea of what the reception will look like and what will be served, the wedding cake is being designed as we speak, and my invitations are picked out and ready to be printed! I think I got everything in there. Anyways I still need to find a reception venue, music, and caterer. Which if you look at it is only 3 things but they are the biggest things. Military wedding planning is an art let me tell you.



Semper Fi<3

Web cam!

I am so glad that someone decided to invent web cams. After months of not seeing Jon I got to talk to him for hours and look at all the cute little faces he makes when he is doing something. The entire time we were talking we both here sitting up. His roommates even jumped in every now and then. ha. At the end I had to lay down cause my bum was hurting so he laid down too. My heart hasn't gone that fast since I last saw him. It was like we were 5 feet apart. I had to keep reminding myself that if I leaned in to kiss him I'd get a face full of screen. Every day I am happy because everyday I wake up knowing he loves me and knowing how much I love him but last night I was the happiest I have been in such a long time. Just being able to see him smiling and watch him squint his eyes when hes reading or bite his nails, even though I hate it I missed it. I couldn't stop smiling the entire time. Thank you web cam and Skype!

Semper Fi<3

Bring on the stress!

If you have read the previous post you know that Jonathan and I are getting married in December!! WOO HOO! Wedding planning is so exciting, to an extent. Most of the time you are pulling your hair out wondering which design or color to go with. The fun stuff is picking out your dress and your bridal party's dresses. Since this is obviously my first wedding I have no idea what I am doing. Thank god my mom, soon to be mother in law, and bridesmaids know a thing or two or else I'd be hiding in my room forever.
I only have 4 months to plan this wedding. I like it though. That means my decisions have to just get made which is how I like to do them. Nothing gets dragged out and everything can get done quicker. I have already found and purchased my dress! It is a Oleg Cassini princess dress. It was over $1,000 marked down to $300. I loooove sales! It fit me absolutely perfectly so I didnt even need to get alterations done. Once again WOOHOO! I would put a link on here but Jonathan has this page bookmarked and there is noooo way he is seeing this dress before the wedding.
Other than that my only progress is who my bridesmaids are, their dresses are picked out but not my maid of honors. The whole problem right now is that we dont have an exact date so I cant book a venu. Ladies, this we can thank the marines for. haha. Oh well. I am just going to work as hard as I can at getting as much as I can done without a date. OR I am going to just pick a day and hope for the best. HA!


Wish me luck!

Semper Fi<3

ITS OFFICIAL!!!

Jonathan and I are getting married when he is home for Christmas on leave! I am so excited!! 4 months and I will be his wife!! :-)

They got it so right...

Rascal Flatts always get the lyrics so perfect. Just listening to this song makes me feel like he is still right here with me.

When you light those candles
Up there on that mantle, setting the mood
Well, I just lie there staring
Silently preparing to love on you
Well, I can feel the heat from across the room
Aint it wild what a little flame
Can make you wanna do

I melt everytime you look at me that way
It never fails, anytime, any place
This burn in me is the coolest thing I've ever felt
I melt

Don't know how you do it
I love the way I lose it, everytime
Whats even better
Is knowing that forever you're all mine
The closer you get, the more my body aches
One little stare from you is all it takes

Evertime you look at me that way
I melt, I melt




Just thought I would share.

Semper Fi<3

It's like crack.

We all know that "civilian" girls have no idea what our lives are like. Their biggest concern is if their boyfriend will be on time for the movies and ours is if he will come home alive. What I have never thought of is people who not only have never been in our position but have never been in love. Those are the people who really wonder why on earth we would go through this. Those people are my parents. (Mainly my father). My parents have been divorced since I was 6. As far as I know they have never found their true loves. Ever heard the saying "love is like crack" ? That actually holds some truth. When you are in love your brain gets stimulated in a similar reaction that crack would have. This is why when you're in love you are always happy and feel crazy feelings that you have never experienced before. The only clause in this is that it only happens with your first love and never again. Your brain is immune to it once it has been exposed. (Information courtesy of my pathetically boring summer neuroscience class).
People who have never had this first love feeling could never come close to understanding what Jonathan and I have. Not only do we have the bond of being a couple in the military but we have the bond of being each others first loves. Have you ever seen, or read Twilight? Edward Cullen says to Bella "You're like my own brand of heroin." Well close enough. When you find the one person you are supposed to be with you feel like your are almost addicted to them right? Right.
I truly hope everyone gets to experience this feeling. Perferably by avoiding crack and finding love. I look at my parents completely differently now knowing that they are only judgemental because they are ignorant to my situation. I have a feeling if they ever read this I will get an ear full but hey, blogs are about emotion and feelings. These are my feelings about my emotions and I'm putting them in my blog so everyone can either relate or hate. Jonahtan is my crack and I am proud to say that<3


Semper Fi<3