Something that is constantly in the front line of my thoughts is motivation. I just can't understand how some people are so motivated and driven while I am not. Not all the time anyways. When I am doing something I love I go above and beyond. When I am doing something I love it's a feeling where I know I could do it forever and never get bored. I hear all of the time that you are supposed to do what you love. If that is the advice then why are we forced to do things that make us miserable? I am talking about college. It's tough even just thinking about the idea of not finishing college. I know it's crucial for a successful future but why? Why are we forced to go through 4 years of what I feel like is hell, for a piece of paper? Most people that are successful and happy aren't doing what they thought they would be doing and certainly not what they went to college for. Granted there are those select few who go to college, get a degree, and stay with that for the rest of their life. That is their problem.
I am about to say something that might make some people squirm. I HATE SCHOOL. There I said it. I absolutely hate it. It's not that I hate learning, because I don't. I love learning new things. I just hate the idea and situation of college. You learn based on how one person wants you to learn. It's about their homework, their tests, and their lectures. Granted I am beyond stubborn. Once I get this idea in my head it stays there. But I really just cannot get past this. It has consumed me for the last week. It's all I think about.
If college is supposed to be beneficial to me and something that I need then why is it so painful? It's not that I am not good at school. I have always been an A and B student. I don't put an effort into any classes though. I know it is because I don't enjoy any of the classes.
This is really just a huge rant and I don't know where I am going with it other than to get the point across that I hate college, or maybe I have the wrong degree path. I don't know.
End of rant though. Thanks for reading if you made it this far haha.
Semper Fi<3
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I need a job
I didn't expect it to be this difficult to find a job. I knew it would be hard but I guess I couldn't imagine how hard it is. Does anyone know of any job openings in or near Jacksonville? Granted I am still working on my bachelors but I do have my associates. I feel like I have applied everywhere and I've got nothing. I don't know what to do other than go fast food (not happening).
I am getting frustrated, Jon is getting frustrated which frustrates me more. It's like he doesn't think I am trying or something. I HATE sitting home doing nothing. It makes everything harder on me. I work better under pressure. I would rather work all day and have a few hours at night to do my online classes than have all day to do them because I will procrastinate until I run out of time. It's a flaw of mine.
Anyways, moral of the story, finding a job is getting tedious and stressful. If anyone knows of something please let me know!! Thanks!
Semper Fi<3
I am getting frustrated, Jon is getting frustrated which frustrates me more. It's like he doesn't think I am trying or something. I HATE sitting home doing nothing. It makes everything harder on me. I work better under pressure. I would rather work all day and have a few hours at night to do my online classes than have all day to do them because I will procrastinate until I run out of time. It's a flaw of mine.
Anyways, moral of the story, finding a job is getting tedious and stressful. If anyone knows of something please let me know!! Thanks!
Semper Fi<3
Monday, February 1, 2010
Teacher frustration.
SOOOOOOOO frustrated with this teacher. No matter what I do it just isn't good enough for him. He had the nerve to ask me if I had the textbook. Even if I didn't have the book (which I do) I could answer his questions blind and deaf. It's one of those pointless, non challenging classes that make you wonder why colleges even waste their time paying someone to teach such a pointless, braincell wasting class. Anyone who knows me knows I am an A and B student. This is absolutely rediculous. Isn't it illegal to grade on comparison? He can't actually give me a lower grade because someone else in the class wrote a novel on a question that was properly explained in 5 sentences, can he? He should be failed as a teacher for falling for the teacher's pet, suck up, brown nosing student. UGH. It's situations like this that make me absolutely dispise education and the manner in which it's taught. I am forced to be controlled by one person and their narrow minded ways instead of learning how I need to learn, what I need to learn and be graded on my answer and opinions without bias. No wonder people don't go to college. (This post in no way shows how I feel about all teachers, just the incompetent, unqualified ones.)
Both my dad and my step mother are professors and a community college that I graduated from. They are incredible at what they do and I wish more professors could be like them.
Sorry I have been lacking on the posts and when I did write it wasn't very military related, but I just got internet at the new house so I will be on more! Promise!
Semper Fi<3
Both my dad and my step mother are professors and a community college that I graduated from. They are incredible at what they do and I wish more professors could be like them.
Sorry I have been lacking on the posts and when I did write it wasn't very military related, but I just got internet at the new house so I will be on more! Promise!
Semper Fi<3
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Feeling the stress.
Jon and I are moving into our new home Saturday. Jon also found out he has duty Saturday. THANKS USMC! He is trying to get someone to cover for him but lets be honest. It's a waste of a Saturday and no one is going to want to do that. So Katie (from Diary of a Disgruntled Marine Girlfriend) has graciously offered her services helping me move. We can at least get the little, light things in the house. I feel awful leaving anything for Jon to do because he is working 24hrs straight but we can't life couches or the washer/dryers, and especially not Jon's 100lb bins of god knows what. (He's a pack rat, I'm working on it.)
Anyways, the stress of the move plus my classes is sinking in. I can't focus on my classes and this move. I try to get as much of my work done as possible Tuesday and I get an email from one of my professors saying that my work is inadequate and gives me an example of how it should be. UMM HELLOO!!! I followed his layout EXACTLY so how is it inadequate? This other student wrote a friggin 5 page paper when all we had to do was a quick synopsis of an article. Those are his words too. If I have one thing that really annoys me it is professors that not only compare the work of students but also teaches a class that is a complete waste of time AND I fully believe I am smarter than. It's so hard to put my effort into a class that I know is a waste of my time and I am being criticized on my work no matter what I do. The other 2 classes are great. Managerial accounting and Business Law. Not only will I most likely need both of these BUT my teachers just assign the work and answer any questions. They don't compare students they just grade on if the assignment is completed well. THANK YOU! Some real professors. If I wanted a teacher to hold my hand the entire way through the class I would go back to elementary school.
Ok, that was all frustration. But seriously just GRRR! I am glad it's an accelerated class so I only have to suffer until the end of February. Then I pick up 2 more accelerated classes. JOY.
Sometimes I am jealous of Jon. He is already doing something with his life. Me, I am just flipping pages of text books trying to find the easiest way to answer the next bogus question. I feel like school never ends. More strongly I feel like even when it does end I wont be able to do anything with my life anyways. Why do some people have niches? That one thing they are amazing at while I am stuck without a real success plan in life. Oh well. There is a plan for me I know that. I just need to step up and look for it.
Oh, side note, back to the whole idiot professor. He yelled at me for going ahead in assignments. He said there is no point in doing assignments when we haven't gone over the chapters yet. Um, unless I was mistaken this is an ONLINE class. We go over the chapters on our own time and do the assignments when we can fit them into our schedules. If you didn't want us to go ahead then you probably shouldn't make them available for us. Once again, STUPID PROFESSOR, did you even ever go to college? Your class, Management and Organization Behavior, is a joke. Just saying.
ok I'm over this rant. Thanks for reading.
Semper Fi<3
Anyways, the stress of the move plus my classes is sinking in. I can't focus on my classes and this move. I try to get as much of my work done as possible Tuesday and I get an email from one of my professors saying that my work is inadequate and gives me an example of how it should be. UMM HELLOO!!! I followed his layout EXACTLY so how is it inadequate? This other student wrote a friggin 5 page paper when all we had to do was a quick synopsis of an article. Those are his words too. If I have one thing that really annoys me it is professors that not only compare the work of students but also teaches a class that is a complete waste of time AND I fully believe I am smarter than. It's so hard to put my effort into a class that I know is a waste of my time and I am being criticized on my work no matter what I do. The other 2 classes are great. Managerial accounting and Business Law. Not only will I most likely need both of these BUT my teachers just assign the work and answer any questions. They don't compare students they just grade on if the assignment is completed well. THANK YOU! Some real professors. If I wanted a teacher to hold my hand the entire way through the class I would go back to elementary school.
Ok, that was all frustration. But seriously just GRRR! I am glad it's an accelerated class so I only have to suffer until the end of February. Then I pick up 2 more accelerated classes. JOY.
Sometimes I am jealous of Jon. He is already doing something with his life. Me, I am just flipping pages of text books trying to find the easiest way to answer the next bogus question. I feel like school never ends. More strongly I feel like even when it does end I wont be able to do anything with my life anyways. Why do some people have niches? That one thing they are amazing at while I am stuck without a real success plan in life. Oh well. There is a plan for me I know that. I just need to step up and look for it.
Oh, side note, back to the whole idiot professor. He yelled at me for going ahead in assignments. He said there is no point in doing assignments when we haven't gone over the chapters yet. Um, unless I was mistaken this is an ONLINE class. We go over the chapters on our own time and do the assignments when we can fit them into our schedules. If you didn't want us to go ahead then you probably shouldn't make them available for us. Once again, STUPID PROFESSOR, did you even ever go to college? Your class, Management and Organization Behavior, is a joke. Just saying.
ok I'm over this rant. Thanks for reading.
Semper Fi<3
Friday, January 15, 2010
It's been a while.
My goal with this blog was to post often. Well clearly that isn't happening. I have been so busy lately with the wedding and the move, classes and now another move! It's pretty hectic. I'll try and catch you up.
I showed a couple pictures of the wedding. I really couldn't have asked for a better wedding. It was absolutely amazing. There is a saying that everyone has at least one bad thing happen at their wedding. It's true. Right off the bat at the ceremony instead of saying the marriage of Jonathan and Breanna, he said Jonathan and Brenda, which happens to be my moms name. I immediately burst into laughter and Jonathan said "Well, mom, looks like were getting married!" so then everyone else burst into laughter. If it wasn't for my maid of honor saying "It's BREANNA" then I don't think the pastor would have picked up on why everyone was laughing. I wouldn't say it ruined my wedding though. It just gave us a good memory haha.
We recited our own vows. I am not a crier unless somethings sad. Happy moments just make me smile. But let me tell you, when Jon started reading his vows I started crying. They were so incredibly beautiful I couldn't help myself. He feels like he accomplished something by it haha.
Jonathan's older brother sang Ave Maria during the lighting of our unity candle. It was absolutely breathtaking. I had never met him before that moment because he is some 10+ years older than Jon and lives all the way across the country but he left a good first impression. Then at the reception Jonathan's brother AND sister sang Come What May for Jon and I. Needless to say his whole family is musical and I am, well, not. It was a beautiful song.
The next big event at the wedding was a "surprise" dance for me from one of my bridesmaids fiance's who is also a marine. He told me he was going to do his Michael Jackson dance for me but I didn't actually believe him 100%. That is until Billy Jean came on and away he went, fedora and all. He by far was the hit of the wedding. Everyone is still talking about it. While he was dancing he took off his fedora and put it on my head. From there everyone was yelling GET HIM BRE!! So, I followed him onto the dance floor and it became a dance brawl of sorts. He would dance my way then I put my finger on his chest and pushed him back the other way. It was so much fun! I am praying they got pictures or even a video of this. If they do I'll share them.
Needless to say my wedding was absolutely incredible. I am thankful we got to have it. Most couples in the military have to do a quick courthouse wedding because leave gets tricky. We lucked out and I feel like it is because everything happens how it is supposed to which is really relaxing.
The next day Jon and I packed up everything and moved to North Carolina. We are currently in Surf City until the 23rd. Next Saturday we move into our new home! We have a year lease on the most beautiful home in Hubert. It's at foxtrace, if any of you Lejeune ladies know where that is. I am so excited to move! It took us forever to find the perfect house to rent. We would find one and no sooner call and it would be taken. Finally we went on a tour of 4 houses but after seeing the second one we knew it was ours. It has a garage so Jon can do his car things, a fenced in backyard for the puppy. And not just metal chain fencing, it's all wooden fence. It looks beautiful. The inside is so gorgeous. All newly remodeled. With dark earthy tones so it's a relaxed environment. It literally is my dream house and I am so glad we got it!
For all of you ladies planning on moving to NC with your marine, let me tell you, finding a house or apartment is a PAIN!! You can't really start looking until around when you're going to move because houses get snagged so quickly plus when you lease it they want to you move in asap usually. We lucked out because the people moving out weren't moving out until the end of the month and we have a place rented until the end of the month so it worked perfectly.
I am now working on focusing on my classes and getting used to the area. I think I may have Jacksonville down but I still wouldn't leave the house without the GPS. I have a good grip on the base though. We have been on it so much that visually I can drive around it. I found the library no problems yesterday so I was pretty excited for that. I wasn't at all prepared for how huge this base is. Parris Island is like the front gate comparatively haha.
So this got a lot longer than I thought it would. But that's my last month is a sum up! Thanks for reading if you made it this far.
Semper Fi<3
I showed a couple pictures of the wedding. I really couldn't have asked for a better wedding. It was absolutely amazing. There is a saying that everyone has at least one bad thing happen at their wedding. It's true. Right off the bat at the ceremony instead of saying the marriage of Jonathan and Breanna, he said Jonathan and Brenda, which happens to be my moms name. I immediately burst into laughter and Jonathan said "Well, mom, looks like were getting married!" so then everyone else burst into laughter. If it wasn't for my maid of honor saying "It's BREANNA" then I don't think the pastor would have picked up on why everyone was laughing. I wouldn't say it ruined my wedding though. It just gave us a good memory haha.
We recited our own vows. I am not a crier unless somethings sad. Happy moments just make me smile. But let me tell you, when Jon started reading his vows I started crying. They were so incredibly beautiful I couldn't help myself. He feels like he accomplished something by it haha.
Jonathan's older brother sang Ave Maria during the lighting of our unity candle. It was absolutely breathtaking. I had never met him before that moment because he is some 10+ years older than Jon and lives all the way across the country but he left a good first impression. Then at the reception Jonathan's brother AND sister sang Come What May for Jon and I. Needless to say his whole family is musical and I am, well, not. It was a beautiful song.
The next big event at the wedding was a "surprise" dance for me from one of my bridesmaids fiance's who is also a marine. He told me he was going to do his Michael Jackson dance for me but I didn't actually believe him 100%. That is until Billy Jean came on and away he went, fedora and all. He by far was the hit of the wedding. Everyone is still talking about it. While he was dancing he took off his fedora and put it on my head. From there everyone was yelling GET HIM BRE!! So, I followed him onto the dance floor and it became a dance brawl of sorts. He would dance my way then I put my finger on his chest and pushed him back the other way. It was so much fun! I am praying they got pictures or even a video of this. If they do I'll share them.
Needless to say my wedding was absolutely incredible. I am thankful we got to have it. Most couples in the military have to do a quick courthouse wedding because leave gets tricky. We lucked out and I feel like it is because everything happens how it is supposed to which is really relaxing.
The next day Jon and I packed up everything and moved to North Carolina. We are currently in Surf City until the 23rd. Next Saturday we move into our new home! We have a year lease on the most beautiful home in Hubert. It's at foxtrace, if any of you Lejeune ladies know where that is. I am so excited to move! It took us forever to find the perfect house to rent. We would find one and no sooner call and it would be taken. Finally we went on a tour of 4 houses but after seeing the second one we knew it was ours. It has a garage so Jon can do his car things, a fenced in backyard for the puppy. And not just metal chain fencing, it's all wooden fence. It looks beautiful. The inside is so gorgeous. All newly remodeled. With dark earthy tones so it's a relaxed environment. It literally is my dream house and I am so glad we got it!
For all of you ladies planning on moving to NC with your marine, let me tell you, finding a house or apartment is a PAIN!! You can't really start looking until around when you're going to move because houses get snagged so quickly plus when you lease it they want to you move in asap usually. We lucked out because the people moving out weren't moving out until the end of the month and we have a place rented until the end of the month so it worked perfectly.
I am now working on focusing on my classes and getting used to the area. I think I may have Jacksonville down but I still wouldn't leave the house without the GPS. I have a good grip on the base though. We have been on it so much that visually I can drive around it. I found the library no problems yesterday so I was pretty excited for that. I wasn't at all prepared for how huge this base is. Parris Island is like the front gate comparatively haha.
So this got a lot longer than I thought it would. But that's my last month is a sum up! Thanks for reading if you made it this far.
Semper Fi<3
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
WERE MARRIED!!!!
Were in NC now! I'll talk more later once I get these nails off from the wedding! blahh. haha
Semper Fi<3
Semper Fi<3
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