I've been an awful blogger...

I don't blog every day and I really need to fix that. Blogging makes me feel better and I have gotten a couple responses from girls saying they feel better after reading this. I am so thankful that people not only take the time to read this but that it is meaningful to them too. For all you girls who have contacted me, thank you. You are my inspiration to find a way to write every day!
This is my I'm Sorry entry, I will follow it up with something good!



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New site

I've recently discovered this site called Formspring. You can ask any question to the person either anonymously or not. I have found it to be great for boredom and informative to people who want to ask but are afraid to ask face to face.
Either way if you want to check it out here is the link to my site.

http://www.formspring.me/breannamary

Ok I've decided.

I am changing my major. I am going to become a nurse no matter how long it takes. Transferring usually bites you in the ass because classes don't transfer and such but I am over it. No matter how long it takes I will become at least an RN. Here we go on another journey I suppose!


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Switching majors

I am fairly positive that my problem right now is that I am not enjoying what I am learning. I don't enjoy my classes or the information I am getting out of them. It didn't click with me until last night that maybe I need to seriously consider changing my major. I am a junior but between transferring from my community college to my 4 yr and then from a traditional student to an online student at my 4 year has thrown me back to having about 2 more years if not more added on. At first I cried. I was so stressed out thinking about it taking me 6 years or something ridiculous to get my bachelors degree. Now, I feel like this was supposed to happen. I was supposed to be put in this situation to be able to make the decision to change majors. I won't be put any further behind than I already am I know that. It's just a matter of making sure I am picking something that I will love learning about and doing.
I believe I have it narrowed down to a few selections. I have always been the "mom" of my friends. I am the one everyone tells their problems to and I usually come up with effective solutions for them. I love that people feel comfortable enough with me to let me know how they are really feeling and trust my opinion on the situation. I had thought about going into psychology when I was in high school. I don't really know why I didn't go with it but right now it is number 1 on my new major list.
Number 2 is sports medicine. I love sports and I love helping people. Put them together and you get sports therapy or sports medicine. Something along those lines.
My third choice is an RN. I have always been interested but slightly intimidated by this idea. I hate opened wounds and all that jazz but when I know someone is in trouble and needs my help I am the first to be there and figure out what needs to be done.
I can't make a decision unless I am absolutely positive. I can't go though hating all of my classes any longer. It's destroying who I am. I am constantly having to suffer through these classes which wears me out making me miserable. It's not a good place to be at all. Hopefully I can figure this all out soon.




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Motivation

Something that is constantly in the front line of my thoughts is motivation. I just can't understand how some people are so motivated and driven while I am not. Not all the time anyways. When I am doing something I love I go above and beyond. When I am doing something I love it's a feeling where I know I could do it forever and never get bored. I hear all of the time that you are supposed to do what you love. If that is the advice then why are we forced to do things that make us miserable? I am talking about college. It's tough even just thinking about the idea of not finishing college. I know it's crucial for a successful future but why? Why are we forced to go through 4 years of what I feel like is hell, for a piece of paper? Most people that are successful and happy aren't doing what they thought they would be doing and certainly not what they went to college for. Granted there are those select few who go to college, get a degree, and stay with that for the rest of their life. That is their problem.
I am about to say something that might make some people squirm. I HATE SCHOOL. There I said it. I absolutely hate it. It's not that I hate learning, because I don't. I love learning new things. I just hate the idea and situation of college. You learn based on how one person wants you to learn. It's about their homework, their tests, and their lectures. Granted I am beyond stubborn. Once I get this idea in my head it stays there. But I really just cannot get past this. It has consumed me for the last week. It's all I think about.
If college is supposed to be beneficial to me and something that I need then why is it so painful? It's not that I am not good at school. I have always been an A and B student. I don't put an effort into any classes though. I know it is because I don't enjoy any of the classes.
This is really just a huge rant and I don't know where I am going with it other than to get the point across that I hate college, or maybe I have the wrong degree path. I don't know.
End of rant though. Thanks for reading if you made it this far haha.


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I need a job

I didn't expect it to be this difficult to find a job. I knew it would be hard but I guess I couldn't imagine how hard it is. Does anyone know of any job openings in or near Jacksonville? Granted I am still working on my bachelors but I do have my associates. I feel like I have applied everywhere and I've got nothing. I don't know what to do other than go fast food (not happening).
I am getting frustrated, Jon is getting frustrated which frustrates me more. It's like he doesn't think I am trying or something. I HATE sitting home doing nothing. It makes everything harder on me. I work better under pressure. I would rather work all day and have a few hours at night to do my online classes than have all day to do them because I will procrastinate until I run out of time. It's a flaw of mine.
Anyways, moral of the story, finding a job is getting tedious and stressful. If anyone knows of something please let me know!! Thanks!


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Teacher frustration.

SOOOOOOOO frustrated with this teacher. No matter what I do it just isn't good enough for him. He had the nerve to ask me if I had the textbook. Even if I didn't have the book (which I do) I could answer his questions blind and deaf. It's one of those pointless, non challenging classes that make you wonder why colleges even waste their time paying someone to teach such a pointless, braincell wasting class. Anyone who knows me knows I am an A and B student. This is absolutely rediculous. Isn't it illegal to grade on comparison? He can't actually give me a lower grade because someone else in the class wrote a novel on a question that was properly explained in 5 sentences, can he? He should be failed as a teacher for falling for the teacher's pet, suck up, brown nosing student. UGH. It's situations like this that make me absolutely dispise education and the manner in which it's taught. I am forced to be controlled by one person and their narrow minded ways instead of learning how I need to learn, what I need to learn and be graded on my answer and opinions without bias. No wonder people don't go to college. (This post in no way shows how I feel about all teachers, just the incompetent, unqualified ones.)

Both my dad and my step mother are professors and a community college that I graduated from. They are incredible at what they do and I wish more professors could be like them.



Sorry I have been lacking on the posts and when I did write it wasn't very military related, but I just got internet at the new house so I will be on more! Promise!

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