I have a craving.

My craving is for a new tattoo. Both of my tattoos were thought up just about the day before I got them. It's how I do things.
I know what I want but I am not telling you! I will show you once it is done :-)
Nicole (flip flops and combat boots) and I are going to get one together sometime this week. I cannot wait!





I Love You Mr. Sykes<3




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This amazing feeling.

It's such an incredible feeling when you have your soulmate. Knowing that it's not just a matter of wanting to be together but that it's meant to be. Whenever I see my husband my heart beats fast and I feel a little crazy. And that is just when I look at a picture. My favorite time of day is when I hear my husbands truck pull into the drive way and watching him come through the door. I see him and fall in love all over again. We will just be sitting on the couch watching tv and I'll look over at him and my heart melts. Some people consider falling in love a once in a lifetime experience but I fall in love every day. It happens when I wake up and feel him next to me, when I see him coming through the door, when were driving in the car and he reaches over to take my hand, or when I'm doing the dishes and he comes up behind me and wraps his arms around me.

I can't really describe how amazing true love or having a soulmate is. If there is one thing I could wish for everyone it would be to find theirs.

I am so in love with you Jonathan Christopher Sykes<3 You amaze me more and more every day. I am the luckiest woman in the world<3




Forever and always Mr. Sykes<3



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Angry, annoyed, and many other choice words.

This might get vulgar and ramblish. (Is that a word? Don't care.)

I am so incredibly SICK of hearing about all of these marine wive's cheating on their husbands. I have gotten several text messages of naked girls with messages explaining how they have cheated and that their punishment was fame with everyone owning a cell phone. I have read countless things on Facebook about wives cheating as well. It's like every other second some skank is destroying the reputation of so many others.

IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!! You know going into this life that your husband is going to be leaving. Why waste your time and his if you can't handle it? Or even worse, the ones who get married for the benefits! Oh gosh do not even get me started on that.

It's so aggrivating because the stereotype for marine wives is that we are cheaters and can't stay with our men while they're deployed. UGH!!!

We need to change this. I don't know how but it has got to happen because I am sick of that "look" I get when someone realizes I am a Marine wife. It's a look of judgement that I have to constantly confront because of others mistakes.

I love my husband more than anything in the world. I love him with my entire being. The thought of being without him makes me want to cry. He is the most important person in the world to me. Cheating would never be an option because marriage and love means something to me, to us. Love is a promise and promises aren't meant to be broken. I wish more people felt like that.



I Love You Mr. Sykes<3


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Just a little day dreaming...

My car is a P.O.S. Pardon my french even if it's abbreviated. Something new breaks on it almost every other day. It's pretty ridiculous. I got it as a hand me down from my mom and she drove it quite a bit. It's a 2003 Hyundai Elantra with something like 165,000 miles on it. Yea, that's a lot! Also, probably the reason it likes to fall apart. Anyways, I need a new car. I have always wanted an SUV because lets face it, in good time Jon and I will be starting a family and I want to be the soccer mom but I put my foot down when it comes to the minivan. So, the SUV is the next best thing :-) Here is what I want.


A Mercury Mariner in black pearl slate. I have been in love with this SUV for quite a while and well if I am going to get a new car this is what I am going to get. It's not that bad price wise. It's something like $21,000 brand new. That is like $270 a month payments or around there. The problem arises with me not being able to find a job. Such a bummer. I really need a job or else I am going to go stir crazy! Plus, we could use the extra money.

So for now I will day dream about my beautiful future SUV. Eventually I will have it in my drive way :-)




I Love You Mr. Sykes<3



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How suiting... it's raining.

Not just raining, it's pouring. I had to bring my husband to base at 1 this morning to say goodbye for a month. I remember when I had to say goodbye to him before bootcamp. I thought 3 months was forever and the end of the world. Now whenever anyone asks how long he will be gone I say "Only a month." When did I go from thinking 3 months was the end of the world to saying it's only a month? No matter how long my husband is gone the pain is exactly the same.

I had to watch him get on that bus and immediately the tears started flowing. There is one thing the military wife learns fast and learns early; Every time you see those buses your heart drops. No matter what. Saying goodbye is the scariest thing. I know it will go by fast and I know that I can do it. The problem is that we're not together. It feels like he takes half of me with him every time he leaves. That is what hurts the most. Being able to function when your other half isn't around is a task.

When we were saying goodbye one of the guys said "Don't worry, we'll get you back to your wife." I don't know why but this didn't sit well with me. It sent an immediate pain in my gut. It's all I can think about. Granted he is only going to Yuma for training but there are still dangers obviously. He has to fly in one of those military planes from NC to AZ. It will be like a 8 or 9 hour flight on a mesh seat knee to knee with the guys next to him.

This is my first time on my own out in the world. This next month will definitely be interesting. Stay tuned.




I love you Mr. Sykes<3


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Yucky.

I woke up this morning feeling absolutely awful. I have felt sick for almost 2 weeks now. Off and on but still! Both trips to Myrtle Beach my stomach acted up right around when I was supposed to leave. My stomach hurts at least twice a day now. I have been getting these incredibly painful migraines AND yesterday my eyes went all blurry on me!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??
I hope it's just stress getting to me. Jon is leaving at 1 am tomorrow so this is our last night together. Oh and guess what I am doing? Playing our first volleyball game. Such an awesome wife. I can't help it though. I am coaching it and if I am not there they can't play. It will be done in time for us to stay up all night until he has to leave. No sense in sleeping anyways.
Were considering this our test drive deployment. This was we can figure out what I don't know how to do or things that need to be taken care of ahead of time before a real deployment. Pretty smooth I think.
Oh, and yet ANOTHER yucky thing. I have gone to DMV TWICE to get my license changed over to NC but both times had a ridiculous wait so I turned around. I would just get my NY license name changed but apparently in NY you have to do it in person. So I either go home and get it done or wait 4 hours and get a NC one. OR I go to another DMV in NC and pray that the wait is shorter. I wouldn't mind a good drive anyways. Maybe that's the plan.

Let's see how I deal with being on my own (well with Bo) for the first time over this next month. Should get interesting!





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Ughhh.

Sorry I haven't posted recently. My husband leaves 1 AM this Friday morning for Yuma. He will be gone for just a month but it's still separation. I can do it I just wish I didn't have to.

I'll keep you posted.






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