On the plus side.

I am finally back in my home town! These 2 weeks are going to be amazinggg. The trip wasn't so bad. Turned into 13 plus hours. I may have taken a wrong turn and gotten a little lost in New York City. Everything is ok. I didn't get shot and I made it out without a scratch on my car. Success!

I probably wont post too much these next 2 weeks. We'll see how I feel. I'm aggrivated with the blog world right now I need time to cool off. And I plan on doing just that :-)


I Love You Mr. Sykes<3 I miss you so much<3

Semper Fi<3

Ok new plan

If you don't like what I post, don't comment or take it one step further and don't follow me. I write posts to put my ideas somewhere. Not to get negative feedback. If I ask for your opinions or ideas I'm asking you to simply tell me how you feel about a subject, not how you feel and why everyone else should feel that way and to put people down.

I've said it before and I will say it again. This is MY blog. As in MY words, MY thoughts, and MY opinions. I don't put them on here so you can tell me I'm a hypocrite or something. It's rude. I don't go to your blog and tell you why I think your wrong and pick apart your posts.

If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all.

And I promise not to ask for anyone's opinions on controversial issues anymore. I don't want to deal with people who can't just voice their opinions without having to be right and tell everyone how they're wrong. I'll keep it to my life only. There's enough media coverage for everything else anyways.

I'm finally going home!

I'm hoping to leave by 8 am tomorrow. I'm trying to get everything together tonight but I'm exhausted! Hopefully everything goes as planned. I can't wait to be home for a little while. I need a break.

New York, here I come!


I Love You Mr. Sykes<3 Missing you

Semper Fi<3

Your questions, answered.

I love the questions you asked so here are my answers :-)

What inspired you to blog?

:My inspiration was to find a way to get through the 3 months my husband was at boot camp. I never imagined it would turn into such an amazing experience. Now it's turned into more of a blog about my life as a military wife. Although most of it doesn't even have to do with the military lol.

How did you meet your hubby?

:We met in high school. He was a senior when I was a freshman. I had the biggest crush on him but never said anything. We talked but nothing more than small talk at the lunch table. After he graduated he moved to North Carolina for Nascar tech school and we lost touch until my junior year. He messaged me on Myspace and we started talking again. I actually fell in love with him before we even saw each other again. We were planning on me moving to be with him and go to college. But he moved home a couple months later and we have been together ever since. Off and on a couple times but we always knew we were soul mates. Now ironically we are back in north carolina haha. 

Is he a "lifer" in the Marines?

:As of right now that is his plan. He was debating it for a while but recently decided he wanted to retire from the marine corps. Or possibly switching branches if necessary. 

How did you know your buss was "the one"?

:By buss I am assuming you mean husband? Lol. It's actually a strange story. I knew I was in love with him since I had been since high school but it wasn't until we were together for about a year I think until I realized he was my forever. We were riding in his truck and he reached over and took my hand. I swear my heart dropped out of my chest. Its not like he hadn't done that before but this time it was different. I looked over at him and I knew I was going to marry him. 

How many kiddies do you guys want?

: We want to have 3 kids. 2 boys and a girl. He wants a Jr first and foremost though. 

What is the hardest thing for you about being a military wife?

: This is actually a tough one. It's probably a toss up between having to say goodbye to him so often and coming to the realization that I am second to the military. You get used to it but there are little things every now and then that remind you and they get ya right in the heart. 

You're stuck on a dessert island that has one unending food source of any ONE food you want. What do you choose?

: Oh wow. This took some serious thinking but I think I would choose apples probably. It's one food I can never get sick of and they are delicious!

And the harder one... What is one thing you wish you could change?

:Easy. Nothing. I am a firm believer in learning from your mistakes. I can honestly say I don't regret anything. I have made some really stupid and horrible mistakes but I have learned something very important from every single one of them. I have even repeated mistakes but the second time around I finally learned what I needed to in order not to do it again. Spending your time wishing something didn't happen is a waste because you know you can never change it. You can only learn from it. Hopefully the first time around. 

Thanks for all of the questions ladies!! For those of you who have questions still but didn't get to ask them, leave them in a comment and I'll do another one :-)

Uterus Didelphys

I had my second appointment today to check in on the baby. It has been made official that I have Uterus Didelphys. What that means is that I have 2 Uteruses, 2 cervix and 2 vaginas. Lucky me right? Not.

Some women I guess go even further than that and also have an extra set of fallopian tubes and ovaries. So far they haven't discovered that with me. I think that means that I can only get pregnant in one uterus at a time whereas if I had the extra tubes and ovaries I could get pregnant in both uteruses. I THINK. I am still not positive that I can't still get pregnant in my other uterus which freaks me the hell out.

I asked my doctor and he said it was highly unlikely but everything I'm reading online says that women get pregnant in both uteruses all the time. My doctor said that what would have to happen for that to occur would be when I get pregnant the egg splits into both uteruses and I carry one twin in one and the other in the other. I know, it's confusing. I still don't know for sure. I am not good at forming questions when I am in a doctors office. For some reason my mind just goes blank and I just nod my head. I did pretty good today though.

So, the problem with this is that since there are 2 uteruses the one that is occupado wont have as much room to expand. That means our baby probably wont be able to grow as much as he could. That leads to a low birth rate for a best outcome. More than likely our baby will have a low birth weight but that doesn't mean he/she wont be healthy, just tiny. Also, most likely our baby will decide to come early or have to come early. And our last most likely is that I will have to have a C section due to the baby not being able to move out of the breach position.

My doctor seemed concerned but not overly nervous quite yet. I am on the high risk pregnancy list but it's so that this doctor can be the one who sees me every visit and so I can get more frequent appointments. This is awesome actually because most women get a different doctor almost every time they go for their appointments. I hated that idea so I am happy this doctor is more than happy to see me every time. He is a specialist in this kind of pregnancy so I really got SUPER lucky.

I have heard horror stories of women who went through Naval hospitals and had awful experiences. One of my friends who is a couple weeks further along than I am is one of them already. I am so thankful that I have already had great experiences, minus the complicated pregnancy. I have an extremely wonderful doctor who happens to specialize in this matter and requested that I see him every appointment. Everyone is so friendly and really makes me feel a lot better.

It was awful not having my husband there with me today though. It's rough to get that kind of news and not have your support system with you. I got in the car and called my mom to tell her the update and I had to fight back tears. I was choking up until we got off the phone and then I balled all the way home. Then my husband called me to find out about the appointment and I had to fight back the tears again. He knew I was upset about it all but I didn't need him to hear me cry. I hate when he worries about me instead of focusing on what he has to do. It makes me even more nervous.

Luckily I don't have another appointment for 4-5 weeks so my trip home is still on :-) Which reminds me. I bought a new GPS today! Soooo excited! I got a pretty Tom Tom. The best part is I have Juan Pablo Montoya as my guide!! For those of you who don't know him he is a Nascar driver. Which I know is ironic since I am not exactly fond of Nascar but when I am forced to watch it I love hearing him talk so hello PERFECT!! haha.

I am super excited for tomorrow!! I get to hang out with Nicole from Flip Flops and Combat boots, her friend Natalie (I believe) and Carmen from We See the Same Stars. We are going dress shopping for the ball!! yay!

Anyways. This has been super long. I'll leave you with that for now.

I Love You Mr. Sykes<3 Miss you bunches<3

Semper Fi<3

If I Die Young

This song has been out for a while and I didn't really get why I liked it so much until recently. It's extremely catchy and her voice is gorgeous. I heard it again today and it hit me. This song is so close to home and yet it's extremely comforting.

Here are the lyrics.

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town says he'll, love my forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
And here is the Video
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Idk. Take it how you want to but I really love the song. 

My post, your post.

I was thinking how I've got a good amount of people who follow and actually read this thing. I know when I read someone's blog I always have questions about them or for them but I never actually ask them. So here is your chance!

If you've wanted to ask me anything go ahead. I'm talking anything about my life as a military wife, what my favorite color is, to how many kids I want to have. ANYTHING. I'm opening up to the idea that yea I write this blog for me but you read it for you. Sometimes I actually post controversial things on here or give advice to people. I want people to know a little about me and maybe they'd understand my personality a little more. I don't know. This just seems like a good idea! haha.

So have at it :-) I'll make another post answering all of the questions posted, if any.