House!

I just put in an application for a house back in Jacksonville! I'm so excited and nervous all at one time. But I will say that it's incredibly difficult to put in an application when you are physically there. You would think that it would just be a simple fax and done. But nope. They only accept cash or money order for application fees. I don't even know what a money order is but it sounds illegal. My jaw literally dropped when I read this. I thought it was going to be physically impossible for me to get a house before moving back. But then my real estate agent decided to be an angel. She fronted the $30 application fee just on pure trust and good faith in that I would send her a check tomorrow.
Awesome right?

Except now if this house falls through I'll be back to the drawing board which is now scarier than ever with this cash/money order claus.

I'm not even supposed to be looking at houses just yet because I'm not moving until January. My husband said I need to have patience but I can't help it. I'm a planner I like things done well in advance. But this house is just perfect. We actually looked at it over 2 years ago  before we chose our other house. My husband loved it because it has a loft and I loved it's charm. And coincidentally it's come back into our lives! And to top it all off it's not even available until January 3rd so it's perfect!

Fingers crossed everything goes smoothly. I should know tomorrow.

Another worry of mine is if they run my credit and now my husbands. He has near perfect credit whereas I'm battling who other than tricare about bills I shouldn't have to pay. I don't think they have a collections on my report yet but I did get a letter in the mail even though the hospital and tricare said it was all taken care of. Jerks. And from 2009 I have a collections that I already disputed and won that for some reason refuses to come off of experion's credit report even though it's already been removed by the others. I swear doctors are only trying to ruin my life.

If you couldn't tell I'm a worrier. I stress out over things normal people would just calmly get through. It's awful.

Send me some good thoughts, prayers, anything to get me through this please!!

Isn't she beautiful? And so patriotic! 

Gambizzle Jewels

I'm sure I've mentioned this before, and if I haven't you surely have heard it from someone else; Betty Gambizzle with Gambizzle Jewels is the best!

Let me just show you what she just made for me.

The other side says I Love You Forever

From a previous order my awesome locket bracelet. 

(All photos are Gambizzle Jewels)

If you have no idea who I am talking about you need to go check her out on Facebook HERE.

Breaking Dawn

Breaking Dawn was awesome! So awesome. It might be the 2 large mountain dews talking but it was seriously awesome.

I'll be the first to admit that Kristen did a horrible acting job in the other movies. But not this one. Everyone was awesome. And Bella was beautiful, until she wasn't and all.

But seriously. SUCH a good movie. Go see it.

Happy 236th Birthday Marines!

In celebration I am sharing my favorite quote about the Marines. If you've heard it I'm sure it's one of your favorites as well. If you haven't, enjoy.

The Marines I have seen around the world have the cleanest bodies, the filthiest minds, the highest morale, and the lowest morals of any group of animals I have ever seen. Thank God for the United States Marine Corps! 
Eleanor Roosevelt, First Lady of the United States, 1945

I'm thankful

On facebook I have been posting what I'm thankful for every day since the beginning of the month. It's a great way to extend my favorite holiday for longer than one day. I always have a list of things I'm thankful for and it's hard to pick one daily. So I figured I'll write my list out here.

I am thankful for...

My family. I have an incredibly supportive and loving family. Both blood and my inlaws. I have been very blessed.

My daughter. Every day I love her more. My heart aches when I look at her because I know that my husband would do anything to be home spending time with her. But I am very blessed to have her through this deployment to keep me happy.

My husband. Every day he guides me to becoming the best version of myself. He fills my life with an immense amount of passion and I couldn't imagine living my life without him. I thank God every night for him because I want to wake up to him every morning.

Actually I can't even write anymore. All I can think about is how thankful I am that I am married to such an incredible man. He's amazing. There he goes again filling my heart and head with love and emotions. So much that I can't think about anything else.

I Love You so much big guy. You're my life<3

Nature vs. Nurture

Recently I had to discuss my views on nature vs nurture related to leaders. In other classes I've had to talk about this as well and I always get overwhelmed. It's such a hard topic to discuss because I really believe there is no answer nor will there ever be.

Do we become the people we are because we were brought up a certain way? Or are we the person we were always meant to be? I would like to think that we have a say in who we become instead of having no control. But several times in my life I have found strength to overcome things that I never thought I would have had. So is it destiny?

The religious side of me says nature but the curious part of me says nurture. In the end I'm still confused. I would like to think I have control but when I think about it I never have control. I believe that everything happens for a reason and that there is a bigger plan for my life than I can see. Believing that everything happens for a reason has gotten me through some very tough times.

I recently read something that said God never gives you more than you can handle. He puts people in your life who are meant to be there in order to make you who you are supposed to be.

It's calming once you fully believe that everything is part of a bigger plan. So although I still think that every day you need to put your best effort in, I believe that you will eventually become the person you are meant to be.

I've only recently focused on religion. Just a little while ago I was a mess of a person. Once I opened my mind and heart up I felt as if I became a whole new person. It's almost as if I realize who I want and need to be now. Hardships have shaped me but so have some really great people. Mainly I owe who I am today to my husband and my mother in law. My husband pushes me every day to be the best version of myself. My mother in law leads by example. She is the most kind hearted and free spirited person I have ever known. She puts all of her faith and trust in God. She is such a remarkable woman and I'm so thankful that she raised such an amazing man.

I think I just contradicted my belief in nature haha. After spending more time with my mother in law and being open to criticism from my husband I have become a better person therefor nurture played a role. But was that part of the plan all along?

GAHH!!! It's such a confusing thought!

I need to stop before my brain explodes.

The adventures of moving

In January I will be moving back to the Jacksonville area. I have started my house search already and it's a headache. Then I got the brilliant idea of letting you do the work for me! Yay!!

What I mean by that is I am reaching out to everyone who lives in the Camp Lejeune area to give me advice on areas, houses, town homes, anything that you would recommend for rent in the area. We are considering everything, except multiple story apartments. Single story apartments/duplexes are fine though.

We are looking to save money since we will only be there for around a year at most and will be purchasing a house near Charlotte after. So this means nothing over $900 a month rent. Even that makes me cringe.

Let's make it a competition. Whoever finds me the best place for the best price will win something. I don't know what yet but I'll make it good.

We need at least 2 bedrooms, fenced in yard, garage, and pets allowed. Everything else is negotiable.

So go get looking!! The sooner I find something the sooner I'll be moving back to the area and we can all get together for a blogging ladies night at my new place :-)