Holy Glimmer of Hope!!!

I am so extremely excited at this exact moment. My last post was me being super bummed about my diminishing possibility of becoming a medical sonographer. But this one is about my glimmer of hope!!

Cape Fear community college has an accredited program that I already meet 99.9% of the requirements for admission!! I would only have to take one or 2 classes and an assessment test and I could apply! Applications start in November so I could take those classes over the summer (maybe) and the assessment test is done right at the college so no biggy.

I already have the majority of the extra bonus points racked up I would just need to take some extra classes to boost my position. I am smiling from ear to ear right now.

But there is one huge problem. We have plans of moving to Charlotte, NC once Jon gets out. He is currently applying to their police academy so that's our plan. In order for me to apply and hopefully be accepted to this program we would have to stay around here for another 2 years until I completed it.

I want SOOOOO badly to do this. My heart and soul knows this is what I'm supposed to do and now I feel like it's almost in my grasp. I have to somehow convince Jon that we need to stay here so I can have a chance at this opportunity. But I feel selfish for even thinking that.

My heart is filled with hope and excitement but my mind is reminding me of the obstacle that is my husband's eas date and future career moves.

My backup plan is getting my MBA. I literally just applied for acceptance with my college for the MBA program online. I'm confident I could do both at the same time since my MBA would be online so scheduling wouldn't interfere. But I would put off my MBA if I got the opportunity to do the sonography program if I had to.

This day has been a roller coaster of emotions and plans. No matter what I do, I have to get the ball rolling asap.

Stress Vent

Why, at 17 or 18 years old, are we given the responsibility of choosing a career path? Just last year, 21, I decided what I really wanted to do as a profession and now it seems impossible.

Maybe it's a bit of an exaggeration. The real complication is that I chose the wrong degree path and now that's proving to be a huge complication in my plans of becoming a diagnostic medical sonographer. I have been looking up the requirements for admissions into the program out in Charlotte and my jaw hasn't come off the floor since.

I have my bachelor's degree, or at least in 2 weeks I will, so I have a lot of the prerequisite courses completed, but not all. I would still have to take basic anatomy and a physiology class. On top of that I have to take the TEAS exam, be certified in a patient care related field (such as an EMT or nursing), and complete a sonography shadowing class. On top of that they give out extra brownie points for applicants that have completed diagnostic medical sonography one and two and Pathophysiology. 30 pts for an A, 20 pts for a B and 10 pts for a C. Then extra 10 pts for people who have completed 6 months in a paid patient health field.

So yea, that's a lot to complete before applying. The application dead line for Fall 2013 is January 31, 2013. So basically I wouldn't be able to apply in time since there is no possible way I can complete those extra courses, get certified for emt or other related field (unless cpr counts because I've already got that), and take the TEAS before January 31. Not to mention pack and move while trying to find a job in Charlotte. It's all so heavy.

If I had just realized that this was what I wanted to do 4 years ago I would have started college in a health field instead of business and I would be set. Now with the amount of requirements, which in reality are totally doable just not in the allotted amount of time, I'm afraid it's going to take me forever if possible at all.

I know I can't really complain. It's not like I'm uneducated. I have completed my bachelor's degree which is great. I'm just really bummed that I can't do what I know I would love.

If I didn't feel like I had to work in order to make our family comfortable then I would be applying to take those classes already. But unfortunately in this economy it's important that both my husband and I work so that we can afford to purchase a house at the end of this year and move out to Charlotte.

I'll figure this out though. I am not giving up. Just jumping repetitive hurdles.

Happy Mother's Day

Tomorrow is Mother's Day and I can't help but get all emotional.

I am blessed to have a handful of wonderful moms in my life. My mother is one of the most compassionate, loving people I have ever met and I wouldn't be who I am today without her. She always pushed me to be who I am and say how I feel and I owe my self esteem to her.

I was lucky enough to marry an incredible man with an incredible mom. My mother in law is my daily inspiration and strength. Every day I am getting a little more patient, a little more loving, and becoming a much better person. All because I want to live my life as beautifully as my mother in law lives hers.

My parents are divorced which statistics show is not a positive circumstance, especially for the children. But in my case I have been blessed with an incredible step mother. She opened her heart to me and really helped define my character. She's an incredible role model and one of the reasons I push myself so hard with my education.

I also need to mention my grandmother, Ooma. I have the best grandmother in the entire world. A lot of people don't understand her but I do because we are one in the same. We're hard headed and opinionated but that's not a bad thing. She will be the first to give you the shirt off her back and shoes off her feet if you needed them. I hate living so far away from her because if I could I would hang out with her all day long even if we just sat there discussing the weather. I love my Ooma with a huge part of my heart.

It really takes having a child and becoming a mother to truly understand how a mother feels. Just the thought of my daughter brings a smile to my face. My day isn't complete until I've kissed her a million times. My heart swells into my throat when I try to explain how much I love this little girl. I would do absolutely anything for her. She is my whole world and with that thought I realize why I have such amazing moms and grandmoms, they would all do absolutely anything for the ones they love. It's a mom thing.

Thank you Facebook

It's been quite obvious that I hate Facebook. It's an addiction and makes me waste my time. BUT today Facebook might have just solved one of my problems.

Almost 2 years ago I got a new cell phone number. Ever since then and even recently as in today, I have been getting texts and calls asking for Jake. Today I got a pic text of a magazine subscription. Really? You haven't talked to Jake in 2 years and that's the first thing you send?

Anyways, my husband had a brilliant idea. He thought that maybe my number was linked to Jake's facebook page. So I check it out and BAM!! It was!!

I was staring at Jake's FB page. Really strange to finally put a face to the name I've been accused of being for almost 2 years.

Any who, I messaged him asking him to take my number off of his account. With any luck he will be a gentleman and do it. If not then I can play dirty too Dolphin lover!! (His work says he's a dolphin trainer at sea world"). Yea, facebook makes people creepy.

I guess if facebook didn't exist though then I wouldn't have had this problem in the first place. So I still stand by my statement of hating facebook. Even though I'm addicted, yet slowly quitting I might add!

MIA

Woah it's been quite some time since I have been on here. Well actually I log in at least once a day and read everyone's blogs but I haven't written one myself in a while. I've been on overload with this class and the amount of work it takes. Plus catching up on all my dvr'd shows of course... haha.

Anyways, I'm super excited for this month to be half over with. Memorial day is coming up at the end of May and we are headed back to NY for our family reunion and a friend's wedding. I love going to weddings. It's crazy selfish that one reason is I get to dress up and look nice but that doesn't happen too often in this household so I can't help it. But I also love them because they're sooooo romantic!! I just love romance.

And of course our family reunion is going to be awesome. It's Jon's side of the family and I have been to more of them since he's been in the Marines than he has. In the past 3 years I have been to 2 of them and Jon has been to zip. Although he swears we have gone to one together I'm not sure. I have a horrible memory if you didn't know. I'm not talking oh she can't remember to buy the milk I'm talking I don't remember a good amount of my life until it's brought up and thought about for a while if at all. It's kinda strange but I think it's due to a crazy concussion a couple years ago. But anyways, the reuinion. We are finally making it to one together (even though Jon thinks we already have)! I'm sooo excited!

Plus to top it all off we get to spend 10 days with our family. I miss my Ooma (grandma) sooo much. We are staying with her so I'm sooo excited to spend some time with her. Maybe some kyaking and definitely some cooking. And then my incredible in-laws! I am so lucky because for some odd reason a lot of people don't like their spouses family but I LOVE mine. They are such amazing people and always make me laugh and happy! I miss them sooo much.

I also get to see my dad and step mom. I just got to see them at Myrtle over Spring break but it's not fair because it was only a couple days so I'm looking forward to some more time with them.

And the best part?? I finish my class the first couple days of June!!! So we will be heading up there and while I'm enjoying my week + up there I will also be enjoying the fact that I will be graduating college!! Woo hoo!!!

Ok, that's a huge update for now.
Here's a picture of our monkey girl<3

Alone time

How important is "alone time" in a marriage? By alone time I mean any time away from your spouse. I had an "alone" day today since my husband won't be home until very early morning but I was with Abigail all day so technically I wasn't alone. More so, girl and/or guy time.
In the movies guys have one night a week they get together to shoot the shit, drink some beers, and play poker. Are we supposed to take the time to be away from one another?

Jon and I have brought this up a couple times. I'm not sure if it's just the military speaking or if we are strange but we really like being together. All the time. 24/7. We have been together for almost 5 years now and we aren't sick of each other at all.

I can honestly say that I can spend every second of every day with my husband and still kiss him goodnight with a smile on my face. Is this strange? Does it have a ticking time bomb strapped to it? I don't know. All I know is that people are constantly telling me that it's their definition of healthy to designate time to themselves and/or with their friends.

I will admit that I feel awful when the girls are all getting together for dinner and I decline because it's a night that my husband is home and I don't want to leave him. But that's the military wife in me. It physically sickens me to purposely take time away from my husband. I just feel guilty for doing it. We went a year without one another and even before his deployment we would go months at a time without one another so it seems like I'm unappreciative of our time together.

I know that some girls get pretty annoyed by this. I can't blame them. I mean who wants to be scheduled in only when my husband isn't home so they can feel clearly inferior?

I wonder if this feeling will go away once he get's out? Am I seriously the only one or are you all just holding back on me?

Although I do have to admit, I really enjoy time away from my mommy duties. I think about her the entire time and I feel horrible about leaving her but the freedom I feel is incredible.

Procrastination

I always find myself waiting until the last minute to write papers for college. I'm so organized and on top of everything else in my life. If I have a trip I mentally pack weeks in advance. Oh...I just figured it out. Because I hate writing papers. Who is going to chose to do something they hate when they have time to do something else? Not me.

Thankfully I work really well under pressure. I actually did all of the required readings ahead of time and took the necessary notes so that writing the paper was simple. If I had to do all of the readings too I never would have finished let alone presented a reasonable excuse for a paper.

But anyways, I just wanted to once again vent on my hatred for academic papers.